Yu Bing dies listening to her own family talk about her like she’s an inconvenience clearing out of the way, her sister already planning the celebration that’ll follow once she’s gone, and that’s the last thing she hears before she opens her eyes again as a much younger version of herself, on the exact night her family decided which daughter to sack off to the countryside.
Getting there wasn’t an accident, her parents never wanted her from the day she was born too sickly, her older sister has hated her since something happened back when they were kids, and her second sister Yu Yan, sent away young for reasons nobody explained properly, hated her too, for no reason Yu Bing could ever pin down. She spent her whole first life trying to earn scraps of affection from people who’d already decided not to give her any, starved herself financially just to get a rare nod of approval from her parents, and trusted Yu Yan’s kindness enough to let her walk all over her reputation and eventually take her fiance, and by the time she was dying in that hospital bed, none of it had bought her a single ounce of love.
That’s the version of her life she’s not interested in repeating, so when she wakes up back on the night her family is arguing over who gets sent to the countryside, with her older sister rushing into a hasty marriage specifically to dodge that fate and then blaming Yu Bing for the marriage falling apart anyway, Yu Bing doesn’t fight to stay, she volunteers to go, on purpose, and cuts every tie to the Yu family the moment she’s out the door.
